The call that never came!!
Here
I am, sitting dejected with my head held in my hands- a common response of
students to failure.
Yes,
I’ve failed.
Despite
doing mediocre well in CAT(Common Admission Test)- 2013 and securing a call
from IIM-Ahmedabad for WAT/PI, which I felt I had almost converted with a WL #3,
stands shattered today on the 19th of June, 2013.
I
too had a dream to pursue MBA from an institution of (inter)national repute.
And this dream made me to lose my valuable Post-Graduate seat at National Dairy
Research Institute (NDRI)- a premier research institute in India to chase the
mysterious world of CAT .
I
had, in fact, grossly underestimated the level of arithmetic and linguistic
skills which CAT expects from us. Nevertheless, in the very starting days of my
preparation in August, 2013 I realized the level of competence I would need to
be there- at the prestigious Indian Institute of Managements.
After
a series of intense preparation that included almost 14-16 hours of study,
cramming-up formulas and giving Mock CATs, finally the day arrived when all my skills
would be put to test- October 31, 2013.
“Not
satisfactory, but yes! Certainly better than one of the best mocks I gave”-
my reaction after I finished locking in my answers (read fate). The D-Day
arrived, only to mock me, yet again. A paltry 89.37 percentile!!! I was
speechless for a day after having seen my pathetic percentile. “Move
on!”- said mom. I too felt so.
The
shocker came on the 3rd of February, 2014 when an envelope carrying
offer letter from IIM-Ahmedabad, India’s topmost B-School, fell into my hands
from heavens. I thanked God and started my journey towards the vacuum-preparing
for the assaulting GD/PI. Eventually, I succeeded in putting up a better show
on 24th February, 2014- my GD/PI appointment date.
I
didn’t know then that God kept some more surprises in store for me. On the 15h
of April, 2014 when I checked my result, I was shell-shocked. I was waitlisted
at #3 in Genera Category Waitlist. People around told me, after their intense
analysis, that it was as good as a convert and that I should start celebrating,
at once. This gave a little bit of hope to my already sunk expectations and has
kept me on tenterhooks since then.
June
20th, 2014 was the last day when I would be notified if, in case,
any vacancy arises by a call from IIM-A- the letter said. And the call never came!!! Its June 19th,
2014 today and I’m damn sure I won’t get a call this year, already.
“Heaven’s
befall! But, why me-again????” - I thought.
A
friend of mine said- “Dude! Whatever happened was good, is
happening is better and will happen will be the best.” Taught me
something important there! Thanks Ajay.
Nevertheless,
life doesn’t end at the footsteps of IIM-Ahmedabad, rather it starts from the
failure.
Bad
times are always followed by good times and experiences.
With
a feeling that this failure is temporary, I want to start afresh. If Japan
could be built from the ashes, why not my life’s gravest failure turned into
success.
Thanks
to my parents and friends who stood by me!
I
owe my failure to myself!
Dude, you have written this blog as if you were in the worst of your worst times. Well I should clear you that it was never. I think people who know you are more confident about you and what you are going to achieve.
ReplyDeleteI think what must have troubled you are people around and their filthy questions. I know you and I very proudly tell my other friends what you do, think and discuss with anyone.
It was definitely a tough time bounded by so many criticism (I suppose) and your innate curiosity to learn more and more which must have made you feel skipped a year..
Not to talk much of the past.
And here you are at CSIR-CFTRI. Many congratulations to you. Have a successful career. And do give a visit to bangalore. :) :P